Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Birthday Wishes

My 27th birthday is in 5 days, and this is the heaviest I've been in my entire life.

Isn't this stage of my life supposed to be when my metabolism is still great and I can eat an order of fries without my thighs rubbing together for the next week? Not so much the case anymore.

I attribute my recent weight gain over the past 2 years to the start of new medication, along with a change in my job schedule that leads to me sitting on my ass 80% of the day. Two years ago I weighed 145 pounds and thought I needed to lose 5-10 more pounds to really look great. Right now, I would kill to be that 145 again. I am now 175lbs. It just keeps going up, and I feel that I almost can't control it. I don't eat THAT bad. I mean, my meals are mostly healthy-ish, but I do have a sweet tooth. Ok, fine.. I have a whole set of sweet teeth. A meal does not feel complete to me unless I have something sweet after it, and that includes after breakfast. Plus, I don't work out anymore. Ever. I wake up in the morning, get ready for work, sit at a desk for 9+ hours, drive home, sit on the couch to watch TV and unwind, then go to bed. Every part of my day I am either sitting or laying down. It's not healthy at all.

In the past, I have all of a sudden been motivated by someone or something and get into the habit of getting healthy and losing weight. That lasts for about a week. I end up binging, or eating 2 huge bowls of ice cream and think, 'Well.. I already screwed it up royally. Maybe I'll have more motivation next time.' And I wait for the next fad diet or weight loss book to get me going again..